Obsessing over Obsessing

The above title says it all.

Often, in the mornings, I would wake up feeling absolutely anxious and dreadful. The very moment I’d wake up, my mind would race and I’d feel this panicked feeling despite having nothing “worrisome” to worry about.

This went on for what felt like forever and this was at the PEAK of my worst OCD episode, ever. Before I was officially diagnosed with it.

What was happening? Why did I wake up feeling panicked and scared? Why was it happening immediately upon waking? What was REALLY happening?

Once I was diagnosed with OCD, did some research and consulted with my counselor plus spent excessive hours picking my brain, I finally realized what was happening!

I was OBSESSING over OBSESSING.

Indeed, a vicious cycle. The “O” in OCD stands for obsessive. The part of it that we, the sufferers, often forget about. Ironic, huh?

You become obsessed with obsessing. Sure, there’s a million other things that we can dwell on but a lot of us don’t realize that virtually anything can turn into any obsession if you’re the slightest bit anxious about it.

If you’re one if those who can relate to this particular obsession, take a moment to process this article and relate.

Once you acknowledge this obsession, you’ll be able to disregard it easier.

Remember, you aren’t the only one. Most OCD individuals keep silent. That’s changing and more of us are opening up about the battle!

Reassurance

Reassurance is a compulsion. It’s a mental compulsion just like ‘persistent’ hand washing is a physical compulsion.

When you acknowledge you’re seeking reassurance (the compulsion) due to panic and uncertainty, you’ll be able to understand it’s just the “Ole OCD” acting up again. Labeling it as it really is, the quicker and easier it’ll be to accept it and forget about it.

It’ll come back over and over again (it is OCD after all, right?), but each time it’ll come and go faster. You’ll begin to live a happier life with much less worry.

Without actually knowing your mental compulsions are what they are, you’ll sit there obsessing in your head until you become severely distressed. I’ve been there, done that. You can be helped and you can live a wonderful life!